BN’s Half-Baked Paradigms Of Questionable Thoughts

I’m at work right now and am ignoring the task at hand to finish an old thought that I had in writing my last post.

It had to do w/ perspective (the anthropological and my new favorite word, zoological, is what triggered it). So I’m finishing the thought and getting rid of it so I wont have to let it creep back when I hit the pillow tonight…

This is actually an old thought I had, and it actually wasn’t really a thought at all. It was more like a flash of a pattern I saw when I shifted my gaze from the inward to the outside.

The patterns I will get to (…and please feel free to stop reading at anytime to dismiss this all as drivel…it may well be), I feel are a byproduct from the years I have spent in introspection. And not in any severe form. I did not grow my hair out and sit in a sandbox for a year. I was just very introspective at a time while I was also very extroverted. And I’m not at all referring to this point in time where I’ve revisited the f’art of introspection. I am referring to when I was 19 or so and fully exhausted it by around 23. At that point I literally didn’t feel the need to dip inward, analyze or anything.

But in having those years, I found, erroneously or not, that when I looked up and out that I began to see instantaneous patterns. Patterns and a set of seemingly binding rules that appeared to govern the internal and external world as well.

Now, I keep these ‘connections’ I have made as MY connections, not universal unflinching truths (though I may be entirely correct, ha). Again I maintain them as my truths, and they are mine because I don’t read shit in regards to philosophy and/or new age crap to morph with my own. For whatever reason I see it as other people’s takes and thoughts, and I simply have no interest. Maybe I take this stance because I feel like I don’t need to have the answers.

So great works will remain unread…unless they’re yours JH. I’ll read what you got.

But back to my own. Again I don’t know how ‘real’ or accurate they are…if they’re part of some larger truth, because…well, I think of Tetris.

When you sit and play that useless fucking game to nausea, which most of us have…well when you set the game down, you tend to see the environment as Tetris pieces. I.E. If I could just rotate the Chrysler building ninety…degrees….there we go. Drop it and..level cleared. Meanwhile…screech…lurch…scream….slam….fender bent.

The Tetris Syndrome. Being consumed by one thing and then seeing the patterns that may or may not exist in a larger or different arenas. -And as much as the Chrysler Building looks like it would fit between the street and the neighboring coffee shop, it probably wouldn’t.

So there’s my self disclaimer before I go into this. And again, stop reading at any time, please. I probably would’t read yours. This is to ensure my R.E.M.

Anyways, patterns that I have noticed, or laws that seem to be behind something, is the similarity of the micro to the macro, or more specifically the inner world to the external world in relation to people (for the example of ONE of the patterns I will speak to).

Let me make it more clear…the inner world of an individual to the societal world at large. Patterns repeat to me. I can rotate the same L-shaped pieces.

Am I sharing too much, here?

And before I go on, I do not spend time ‘thinking’ about this shit. It just hits me in a recognizable pattern, almost like seeing a familiar face. I just notice it. We probably all do this, I’m just writing about it. This might be a ‘No shit!” response. Hopefully you all tell me that it’s normal. I like belonging…

But back to my example. This is how I view the world, from a very birds eye point of view, that very much blurs out the details, complications, and intricacies as to what is going on on the ground.

I see humanity at large as a unit, like I see myself as a unit (w/ a respectable sized unit…ooh yeah). And the maintenance of balance within these two units I see as very much governed by the same principles (and this shit may very well work on the cellular level or as all encompassing as the universe. I don’t know) Where was I? Here:

With one’s self, in order to maintain true emotional health there needs to be openness and connectedness. Balance. If we slip out of emotional and psychological balance, we lose our well-being and can be led too heavily by the ego or have self destructive tendencies, etc. In order to truly maintain self there is a certain acceptance and working together with mind, body, and spirit. An unhealthy tilt towards ego hurts other aspects of us that in turn affects negatively the whole. (I am keeping this abbreviated so this isn’t too long).

Now expanding that outward to the state of the society:

With the state of societies and powers around the world it seems to be very much of the same thing. If parts or powers lead by aggression, then the state of the human race suffers as a whole. These powers tend to run the show economically, politically, militaristically, etc. and in essence represent the ego. They go largely unchecked, are very self-serving and largely blind to the other parts that are actually part of themselves, but by being ego, they erroneously view themselves as separate. Which they think they are self-serving but are actually hurting themselves by separating and further hurting by oppressing and overpowering other parts…imbalance. Imbalance and distortion.

I’m not stoned here…

And so humankind as a whole is out of balance due to the imbalances of the unit. There are different parts dominating and other parts reacting and creates imbalance because harmony is not being pursued or achieved, thus the well being of the whole suffers.

And when the world suffers…and I’m referring to people only in this example, since obviously everything else suffers to from us being here (can expand the unit to the planet itself)…but when the world suffers then the imbalances grow and as a result reactions occur. Within the body…disease –physical, mental, or spiritual. Within the world…deaths, sickness, splintered factions and extremists.

And in the case of extremists, just like the diseases of body, mind, or emotions (take your pick or all) pop up on the radar.

They always have the chance to rise and lash out at any given time, but they tend to need the right environment to do so. An out of whack body. An out of whack socio-economical or political oppression….or whatever.

For example, the rise of Hitler (since we all know and love him) and all his devastation. Hitler was a unique guy, but there are millions of Hitler/cancer cells just waiting for the environment to suit itself -for the imbalance. Germany was kept in a state of ruin post World War I for thirty years. That was the ‘agreed’ upon ‘punishment’ for Germany for its responsibility in dragging the entangled alliances into the Great War.

Three decades of a ruined country made a tasty environment for the likes of a power hungry, sick little dude like Hitler to flourish. Radical (cell) and high and mighty, he took advantage of an imbalanced system and rose to power causing massive devastation. It prayed up on the host, our world and nearly took us all down.

WWII set it relatively straight again, and following WWII we made a point of not making the same mistake twice. We recognized the danger in creating an unhealthy environment….vacuum to suck in the likes of said retard.

And the Middle East…similar situations and patterns of vacuums, oppressions, and voids caused by (ego)tistical and powerful forces that give rise to extremism…the right environment….

I offer no solution. I am accomplishing little or nothing by sharing, again this is for me for tonight, but my Tetris belief system largely makes up what frustrates me in how I view the world and how I see the powers that be’s approach to it. We all suffer as a whole when we divide and make and leave parts unhealthy. It corrodes the whole.

Now if the powers that be took the time to realize that it’s all (and I’m ego-centric in believing I’m right…90 degrees to the left…and drop…), we’re all interconnected, then the actions would hopefully be different, or be so much more slanted on taking care of one another. The human race is a unit, much like an individual, and is delicately interconnected. Keeping parts unhealthy, keeps the whole unit unhealthy. But the ego tends to skew things and call the shots. …Ride on W.

And I can take this ‘unit’ idea to just the US alone in how we divide and create an unhealthy host within our sea to shining sea. Same principle. Same patterns. It’s repeated all over. And in the family unit too if we want to shrink the scope back almost to the individual unit of one individual. Same thing. Same patterns. Same principles. It plays out time and time again w/ forces that mirror the internal workings of the individual.

I could go on and on… The patterns I see are all over. I’m not going into great detail because I’m writing this more to just write it out. Not convince.

And I could be totally wrong.

This could just be my Tetris Syndrome. There are probably a bunch of individuals out there who played too much Donkey Kong. Perhaps their viewpoint of the world is intertwined with an irate giant gorilla.

Now shit, screw Thoreau –blah!, Nietzsche –hmmph!, Dostoiewvschi -Nonsense! Bring me the works of Donkey Kong Guy. That’s the fascinating shit I want to read.

BN