Obama

I don’t know how close I can get to this guy. But l like him thus far. I don’t love him yet. I might down the road, but I do like him. And one of the reasons that I don’t love him, is because I haven’t watched him too closely. Haven’t gotten to know him all that well.

There are a few reasons for that. Well for one, I can’t stand politics, but not to the point of being completely ignorant as to what’s going on. I pay enough attention. But there is another reason and I don’t like thinking about it.

Ever since the buzz began with this guy I instinctively became nervous. Young. Handsome. Optimistic. Charismatic. The new Camelot?…uh, oh. ….Black. Oh shit.

I am nervous.

As much as I’d like to think that our country has come far enough to not have a real issue with this fella’s skin tone, better sense…or my opinion that I have better sense, tells me that this could be a real potential problem. His ‘color’ may be not only viewed as black, but also to some as a series of red concentric rings.

I am uncomfortable.

Damn nice to see that he won in Iowa though. That is very exciting and encouraging. But what about the hundreds of thousands (probably a very conservative number) of red-blooded Americans who have muttered aloud to his cronies, or at least thought this sentence, “Ain’t no nigger going to be my president.” Maybe even followed by, “over my dead body” which I wouldn’t have a terrible problem with. Lets weed you dumb-shits out.

But that is out there. And that is a reality. And what percentage of this population of red-blooded Americans possess their own firearms? Conservatively, probably around 98%.

Now I’d like to have faith in all of this, but it just makes me incredibly nervous. I am 33 years old now. Amazing how time starts to catch up with you. It really doesn’t feel like that long ago when I was a little tyke stating off in this world. And only 6 years….not 20 years, or 30 years….but 6 years before my birth, Robert Kennedy finished his speech after winning the California Primary. Walks through the kitchen and boom….That’s all folks.

And why? Who the hell knows? Retaliation for his involvement in trying to get rid of Castro? Possibly. Though his brother’s death may have settled that feud.

His previous battles with Jimmy Hoffa and the Teamsters while he was Attorney General? Could be.

Maybe it was due to his strong stance on civil rights and social welfare. Maybe there were one too many photos of him going into impoverished areas, swooping down and picking up an African American child and embracing him or her. He was loved by ‘minorities’ because he had the stones to truly get in there, against the advice of his surrounding cast who was worried about his security, to get to know their stories and ‘feel’ and get a better sense of their struggles. He was a man for the underdog and felt the plight of the underdog, which was strange given his privileged upbringing. The psychology of this guy was interesting. (There is a fascinating book by Arthur Schlesinger on him.) But he was there and was embraced and was looking to unify. All this was rich in imagery as the nation was able to watch it all on television. Big RFK fever. Young, charismatic, brought new life, new hope, and he was white….

I don’t like thinking about.

It wasn’t that long ago.

And this is a shit topic. I’m just writing about it for some reason. Sorry.

Assassination seems like a lost ‘art’ these days. We aren’t seeing any attempts. I mean shit, look at Bush. A two-term fuck-up. An absolutely awful president that has directly/indirectly (whatever your opinion) hurt/disillusioned/infuriated/wounded/killed countless numbers of Americans/foreigners…and no one has taken a shot at him.

Part of it is logical. The lunatics who would do such a thing finally have someone they can root for. Plus, they don’t seek applause in doing their dirty deed. They seek to be the bad guy. Knocking off Bush could very will bring a large amount of quiet applause and somewhat unify the country. That doesn’t work for these guys. They need to be hated and loathed. Notorious. Not, ‘well I’m glad somebody finally did it”. Now I’m not advocating that or would be in any way happy if that had occurred. I would be sickened by it. He should however be wiped out through impeachment if you asked me.

Shit, I’m sorry I NEVER talk politics. I hate it. I do.

But Obama. I’m worried. I’m worried for him. For his family. For our country. Could you imagine the fallout? I hope to God we have evolved beyond these affairs. That the hundreds of thousands of ‘ain’t no nigger going to be my president” can be content by just staying on their fucking porch spit shining their rifles and thinking, yeah, he black but he ain’t that bad.

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